Meal plan, Musings, and Goals of the Day – Sometimes it all goes to shit

Although I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been, I keep trying to tell myself to lose the weight slowly, naturally, and sustainably.  Even if I lose 1 pound a month, in 1 year I’ll be at my normal body weight range. It’s hard because I’m struggling to even fit into my fat pants and I want to lose the weight

7:30 A.M. Breakfast: Kirkland Nut Bar and Green Tea

12:00 P.M. Lunch: Chicken Cobb Apple Salad from Disneyland (Red Rose Tavern)* Bought it but hadn’t eaten it.

3:00 P.M. Snack: Cup of berries.

6:00 P.M. Dinner: Spaghetti Squash with Trader Joes Turkey Meatballs and Prego sauce.

7:00 P.M. Do circuit training/shower then pack more boxes for move tomorrow.

Historically I generally eat all my calories by 2 to 3 p.m. and I really struggle with snacking. I’m generally either overstuffed or my blood sugar drops and I’m hangry. The Hangry Hulk. So I really want to make sure I can fit this schedule. I hope to later move breakfast later since asians eat soooo incredibly and annoyingly late. Around 8 p.m. Eating 5 to 6 p.m. makes social engagements very difficult and I go to bed hungry which I hate. But my goal is to not eat past 8:30 p.m. either.

——- ACTUAL DAY ——-Update 12:56

7:30 A.M. Breakfast: Kirkland Nut Bar and Green Tea

3 cans of La Croix and decaf.

10:30 A.M. Lunch: Chicken Cobb Apple Salad + handful of berries.

11:45 A.M. 6 pieces of mini milkyway, 3 minipeanut butter cups

12:50 P.M. Cinnamon Roll and a small sliver of dutch apple pie

2:40 P.M. A tiny amount of Cinnamon Roll and dutch apple pie. Man I eat like shit.

Decaf and another La Croix.

Sugar is a trigger food for me. The goal and what actually happens repeats everyday. I was told willpower is greatest when you wake up. It doesn’t feel like it. It’s such a finite resource, how do I manufacture some?